The other day I was feeling overwhelmed as usual. So many things I wish I was doing and so little time to get it done. I realize this feeling of divine discontent, wishing everything was perfect, is a feeling which pushes us onward and upward. But I realize I need to focus, not fear.
I also realized the things that improve our lives and move us forward are the little things done repeatedly not big moments of glory. For instance, chosing a healthy snack, flossing your teeth, making a call or sending a letter, sharing something yummy with a friend, taking a walk, saying I love you, giving a hug, painting for 15 minutes, reading scriptures for a few minutes before bed. All these things don't take a lot of effort or time but done repeatedly make a big difference.
FOCUS! Focus on what's important to you and write it down. This is what I've been lacking. I get so caught up in the whirlwind of life that I don't remember the little daily steps I need to be taking to move toward my goals - and so I don't move forward and when things slow down I realize I'm not at all where I want to be.
I went to a Releif Society Retreat (women's group) at a cabin up in the mountains of Heber and a great woman, Eileen Lindsky, spoke about the importance of having goals and working a little every day on them. Write down something you want to improve on and decide what steps it will take to get there. Mine was to clear out of my home and life clutter that I don't need. To create more order and peace at home. I started to work on it daily and because I didn't have a reminder about it totally forgot about the goal. I think I need to create a goal board to look at daily.
I'm always a little jealous at women who seem to have it all together and I always feel so disorganized. One Sunday at church I needed a diaper to change Jared and I thought I had one but I didn't. A Sister joked and said, "No diaper in the diaper bag?" and it really made me realize how unprepared and disorganized I am. I need to work on that.
The other day I was trying to can pizza sauce and do something with all the tomatoes from my garden. I was talking to my mom and told her what I was doing and about a job I was thinking of trying and she said, "Right now, just finish canning your tomatoes and then work on the other things". I said, "Spoken like a woman who knows me". She replied, "Yes and a woman who is finally starting to know herself". I'm so thankful for a wise mother who knows me and encourages me to try to slow down and FOCUS.
So try to really think about what you want to do. And remember a goal unwritten is only a wish.
